Sunday, November 18, 2007
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Mood: Melancholic
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So, i'm supposed to be mugging for my physics MCQ on tuesday now, or at least for the Computing paper 2 on friday... but i've lost all the drive on mugging. I don't know why, even now when there is only 2 papers left, i'm supposed to feel happy and refreshed with the goal of pulling through the last 2 papers but NO... I don't feel that way. Instead, my mind is aimlessly wondering what it should be doing. To top it off, my mind is once again spinning in turmoil not knowing what to do. For the past few days or week, i've been trying to shake off this feeling... mugging for history, playing wc3 with eugene, parkour, etc. So far only parkour has been successful. I even thought of getting myself drunk for once... but damn i'm still 17 and when i got the chance to drink, i failed to drunk myself. pathetic. Have i reach a new low in life?
Maybe its because i kept too many stuff to myself. Maybe i should, instead, voice my heart out to someone to make me feel better. But to whom should i tell? i've told the wrong people countless of times, resulting in catastrophe all year long. Not that i don't trust people, i'm just too paranoid. Yet coincidentaly, my fears often come true. So just what am i suppose to do? I guess i should probably continue parkour-ing for the thrills till i break a leg or 2. Fuck, i don't recall me being so freaking emo b4. Screw this bullshit.
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